Day7-

Well here we are a week later -
I was wakened by a call from Steve - frustrated because Sierra was not doing as he asked. She was not getting ready and when I tried to talk to her she said nothing. I know she is afraid to get back out there.

At 9:30 am - got the call that Summer helped get her ready and she was down in the ADK room ready to go, but 3:30 call revealed that she did not go out. Just as I was afraid of - later attempts to get her out with her dad also failed.

Started to snow at 11 am - very peaceful.

House was too quite, not used to that. I spent most of the day relaxing, watched a movie and an NCIS marathon - things I never get to do. Was able to get the sheets on the girls bed washed and ventured out to the mailbox.

Very low key day....tomorrow will be a different story - girls will be back and who knows what that will bring.

Day 6

Technically I took the day off today - although I ended up working about 3 hours.





Had my first PT appt. and it seemed to go well. My therapists name is Dana - she seemed please with the progress I ve made so far on my own. Told her my tow initial goals are to

1. ditch the crutch for a cane
2. be driving by next Friday

She was really cool - actually helped create some exercises that helped mimic the motionsn of driving to help get me there and also gave me some others I need to practice. next appointment is Wednesday of next week.

Spent some time at the office getting some software pushed to my computer - waste of time as I still did not get the email with the token as of 6 pm. Hoping it will come through so I can be more productive at work.

Rushed around like a crazy person trying to get the girls ready to go to the mountain - lunches, bags packed - Food for snacks...all those things the Mr. doesn't really think of because he is not the MOM.

I was really worried about Sierra this weekend - think she will be to scared to go back out. I know she has been keeping a lot in... think she is scared and afraid to say it. Bless her heart.

On the bright side I had a great time with MG - it has been so long since we've spent any time together. Went to a new restaurant - had some great food and a couple of glasses of wine. Took the edge off so I could get some sleep - at last.

Day 5

Slept better than I had in days - must have been the relief of knowing I did not have to have surgery.

Today was spent working mostly - trying to stretch my lef on the ball and getting better at moving around.

Steve took Summer to gymnastics and Sierra went along -I should have been heading to my class tonight - but have to come to terms with the fact I won't be doing that for a while yet.

Girls have been very helpful this week - think it must be sobering for them to see thier Mom hurt.

Day 4

Had a little meltdown today when the Dr. office called to let me know " I really did a number on my leg" The MRI showed a complete tear of the ACL. From what I've heard that means surgery - if I want to be active again.

Funny though how when a Dr. calls another Dr. they suddenly have room in their schedule. Dr. Anderson's office got me an appt at the Ortho Dr. for 2:30 . Steve had trouble getting off work in time - so I was a bit late, but was able to see the Dr.

He was really nice - reviewed the results and said that none of the other ligaments were torn and I had the option of either having a reconstruction or focusing on rehabilitating the knee. He said there were some studies that showed people who had surgery and people who did rehabilitation 5 years later and there was not significant difference.

I have to trust he knows what he is talking about although - it is no secret I have trust issues. I have a follow up appt. in 2 weeks - and will start physical therapy this week.

Day 3 -

More pain in my leg overnight - felt throbbing in my knee, and woke up to take Tylenol in the middle of the night. Still not sure if that is to be expected as the swelling goes down or if I pushed myself too much yesterday.

MRI scheduled today - having a bit of anxiety about what I will find out there. Keeping my fingers crossed. It will be nice to get out of the house for a bit and have a change of scenery if nothing else.

Lots of support from friends via facebook and calling Steve. That feels good - it's hard for me to ask for help but thinking I need to start reaching out for back up in some areas.

Agenda for the day -
1. MRI -
2. See if I can line up some back up plans for getting girls around
3. Start gather piles of laundry for Steve to start this evening. Girls will need their ski gear clean for Saturday. Hope Sierra doesn;t have a problem getting back on the slopes.

Day 2

Now that I have the proper equipment to help me get around I am hoping to make progress in 3 other areas today

1. take a shower




2. schedule the MRI




3. work on getting some Christmas things put away (just a few)

Milestone 1 - successfully completed this on shortly after the girls left for school and before I started working ( from the couch) Nice to feel human again and managed without incident in the shower

Milestone 2 - earliest I could get in for an MRI is tomorrow at 1 pm. Anxiety is now building about this visit - as I am beginning to feel more in my knee and it is not all normal - Hoping for the best and fearing the worst (surgery) for which there is never a good time .

Milestone 3 - I have a bit more pain today than yesterday and was afraid this one may need to wait - but the girls were very helpful after dinner. They helped me get a basket of laundry put away and take down the mantel decorations.

I may have pushed it a bit -because my leg was really sore by bed time. Either that or the swelling is going down and I am having more feeling. Having never been through this type of thing - I am not sure what to expect.

Tomorrow I have my MRI and hoping it will provide me with more answers. Frustrated it will be a week before I can get in to see an ortho doctor - hoping my GP can at least read the results. Hoping I wont need surgery although it is a very real possibility ...scares the crap out of me, so I am trying not to go there in my mind just yet.

Day 1

I woke up today with an agenda -

1. 1. start working on small movements in my right knee and leg,
2. find some apparatus (crutches,walker) to help give me some mobility
3.schedule an x-ray to further assess the damage.

1st milestone - my knee popped and bent as I was being helped out of bed to the bathroom it actually felt better and it released a bit so I could start to try and move it.

2nd milestone - I discovered I could use my stability ball an improvised mobility device to move through the house - bracing myself on the wall or counter as I go. It also served as support to start trying to move the knee a little bit at a time, by rolling slightly forward and side to side. Still unable to put any weight on it - but that will come later - still need xray before I try to push that far.

3rd milestone - with some coordination with friends managed to get myself to the Dr. for x-rays.

Girls were very helpful as I tried to get myself down the stairs and out of the house.

The Dr. confirmed nothing is broken, my ankle is sprained and my knee is still too swollen to assess what the real issue is. I will need an MRI to get more information and have been referred to an orthopedic Dr.

I'll call Day 1 a success since I met all three of my milestones for the day.

Sled ride

Well it wasn't on my list of things to do when we headed to the mountain to start the seasons ski lessons - but after 31 years of skiing - I ended the day with a ride in the ski patrol tobaggen after a fall that mangled my knee.

Luckily nothing was broken - my right knee was tied into a cardboard splint to minimize any twisting and my husband drove me down the mountain with the two girls. Sleeping was rough as I could not turn over. Had to wake th Mr. to help me get to the bathroom - with a dose of ibuprfren every 4 hours I made it through the night.